Prophylactics

She thought about him all day.

How couldn't she - after all, he was the man Jill Scott and Whitney Houston talked about... the man that turned her on just by walking into the room, just by walking out of the room.  His manliness was the epitome of "sexy" in her mind, and she couldn't wait until their next encounter.

Kim knew that things were brand-new still - after all, she met him only two months ago.  She was caught up in "the newness" and reflectively reminisced on this stage in past relationships.  Since her involvement with him, she's been on Cloud 9 most times, coming down for sleep, only to have vivid, life-like dreams featuring him.  It freaked her out how quickly he popped into her sub-conscious, his likeness picture-perfect in dreams had while she slumbered next to him.  Prior to this, she was working on herself - working out and meditating daily to focus on her brief celibacy, broken by the only type of man who could break it.

Yet, Kim knew she was slippin'.  Cakin' it up had become her past-time - if she wasn't thinking of text messages that would give him pause to think about her, she was thinking of their next "encounter", hoping they'd be more than just encounters in the future.  Yep, Kim was catchin' feelings fast but constantly reminded herself of the infatuation stage of a relationship... how what she knew about him was simply the tip of the iceberg and to not get too far gone.  After all, a Cancer hurt her before.  Damaged her, to be exact, and she thought about how the Universe had a strange way of throwing curve-balls her way.  Funny how she often countered that thought with the "what if he could be the one - you never know..." b.s.

He fascinated her in more ways than one, and while she thought she could be the ultimate charmer - coming by to cook dinner, buying small gifts, thoughtful text messages and e-mails - she caught wind of the fact that he doesn't have to do much, and that she was admittedly sprung, trying hard to re-grasp reality before it grasped her.

During her thought sessions of him, Kim also thought of ways to "keep it interesting".  After all, it was way too soon to bring up the "DTR" conversation due to the fact that he seemed to be in the "I'm enjoying the bachelor life" phase, and there weren't many sure signs of "permanence" in their relationship as of yet. After all, he was recently divorced and hasn't yet found the woman who would interest him enough to take him away from his workaholic lifestyle - a trait she mostly dug about him.   She constantly reminded herself that the bottom line to life was to learn while having fun, and regardless of what the relationship lead, at least enjoy it for every moment it's worth.

Kim had just begun to discover the power of Cyn, yet she and Cyn still had a lot to learn.  What she and Cyn hadn't decided on was whether to sexually liberate with him or whether to use this time to casually and safely enjoy time spent while "just having fun".  After all, they both knew the power of  the pussy and enjoyed a drama-free life, nearly 4 months sober.  Cyn whispered in her ear an idea to exercise her sexual strength while keeping him satisfied.  Fantasies of nights spent showing him of how womanly they both could be.

How much of a woman they all could be.

Mz. High.  She was the aspiring dominatrix.  Taking "it" instead of requesting "it" from him, Mz. High often enjoyed destroying the misconceptions men built of her.  She was the thong-wearing, stiletto-hill strutting naughty girl who, when present, takes and gets what she wants...  Gets him howling and trembling while she rides, fucking his brains into oblivion.  Cuddling afterward.

Cyn.  She's seductive.  Starts out innocent with a naughty streak to her, lets you turn her on, and then it's knees-to-shoulders.  Feet-to-headboard.  Nails diggin' into skin.  Shit-talking only to be sexually punished - she invites it.  Lacy boy-shorts are part of her seduction tactics...  The innocent, seductive persona that comes across as one who's new to the game while testing you on your skills while "in the act".

Angie's got voluptuousness-ity to her, playing on her soft curves and her physical features.  Sexy, playful and flirty, while giggly when a nasty thought crosses her mind, allowing the giggle to mask for the fact that if she ever acted on those nasty thoughts, she'd have her man in the palm of her hand in a second.   

Sky in the elevated being... she'll sex him physically and spiritually.  A sexual goddess in her own rite, she taps into a man's energetic being and reads his body language while focusing on channeling his sexual desires.  Then, she opens herself up to his response, spiritually taking him in while enjoying the experience as a whole.  Tantrum yet physical and oh, so soothing.

Then there's Kim... the one who presents herself in her true form.  A little cocky because she knows what she's got, she views first-time sexual encounters as rap battles, allowing the "talker" go first. She believed that she could never explain her greatness, but could only prove it.  Caring and nurturing, too.  Submissive.  Won't stop until she knows she's fulfilled her purpose for the evening.  The pleaser and perfectionist when it comes to sex.

All of them were givers,  never taking without thanking in return. 

The fact still remained that in all of this fun, Kim realized that she could end up potentially training him for another.  While these personalities each had their share of running through her head sharing explicitly what they would like to do to him while creating elaborate fantasies, a small part of her was sick of being given away.  She wanted a man who would balance her... who would take the time to get to know who she was outside of the bedroom - the yin to his yang, and she hoped that he had already begun to realize and evaluate the possibilities. 

This is where Kim's logic came full circle.  She didn't want to sexually unleash upon him without him confirming some form of mature commitment...  She was beyond booty-call status.  She was always worth more, but had to experience it before she pegged it "not for me".

Libras have always been deep thinkers/analytical and quite indecisive. So, we'll leave Kim to meditate on her thoughts of what to do next.  Her decision was like standing in the Prophylactics isle in the drug store, having to decide whether to get "the usual" or invest in something new.



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